solitude

Tony Takitani (トニー滝谷)

Directed by Jun Ichikawa, based on a short story by Haruki Murakami

One of the saddest, depressing, and hauntingly beautiful movie that has ever exist.

When I said I wanted to be alone, I just need some space for awhile. But that doesn't mean I want to put you away for the rest of my life.

I lost one of my best friend ever last month. I don't know how the hell did those happen, nor ever see it coming. Besides that day, never once in my life I had such horrible feeling towards myself because turns out I was being such a burden and a complete asshole to my very own bestfriend. It's crazy when in your whole life, you believe in something, you believe that you are a good human being, and out of a sudden.. bam, you're a bullshit. That all of your belief about yourself is nothing but bullshits.

When an apologize is not doing it anymore, maybe a time off and some space will do us a favor. If you think I'm doing good, well I am. But it is just never be the same 'good' without you.